Just My Thoughts

This is my first tumblr, and it seems pretty crazy that I’m writing my first post for the whole world to see. 

So, I actually tried something like this a couple years ago, when I created my own blog. It all started because I was creepily stalking Aaron Yan <3. 

Not surprisingly, I’ve forgotten and abandoned that blog. Hopefully, this one will last a while. This really is just me sharing my thoughts with the rest of the world. It’s something like an anonymous journal or diary, and I don’t plan on being explicit about much. 

My favorite songs currently are - Everytime We Touch (slow version), and Yu Ai (Rainie Yang). I feel like they really define my life. 

I may not seem like the type of person who crushes on guys, but I do. I believe that every girl falls in love, or at least likes someone during her teenage years.

Well, there’s a guy at my school who is very confident with himself. But no matter how overly confident he is, I still cannot help but love his voice and his laugh. They always bring a smile to my face. I have been so blessed in being grouped with him for so many things. So many, it feels like it must be fate. But, we will never be. I really try hard to be nice to and considerate of everyone, and I laugh easily and have devoted much effort to come out of the shell I always used to hide under (from elementary school through middle school (high school?)). It’s kind of unfair, it seems, that guys always fall for those flirts. Yes, I admit that I’m jealous, but I’m thinking about their wellbeing too. Why don’t guys like people like me, who would gladly give up the world for that one guy? I would not break anyone’s heart intentionally. I would never cheat on anyone or use them. Maybe there are a lot of people out there like this, who do find their special someone, but I’ve just had pretty bad luck. I guess life can be tough, but after working hard (I mean extremely hard), it will all pay off, right? 

I love this quote - 

“Basically I just wanna be the girl he gives his hoodie to wear & cuddles up next to me when it’s cold; I want him to come up behind me & wrap his arms around my waist catch me off guard & whisper ‘you look beautiful’”